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Over the next couple of week I have been asked by the church I work at to lead worship of the 930 service.  I have been putting together the music I came across a song that has put my faith back into prospective.  The song is called unashamed love.  Since school has started up this semester I have been extremely busy and I have been neglecting my prayer life and replaced it with school work.  As I was playing through some of the songs I got to unashamed love and had a minor revelation that I was going to lead worship with a message that I was not following myself.  The lyrics to this song are:

You're calling me to lay aside the worries of my day
To quiet down my busy mind and find a hiding place
Worthy, Worthy

I open up my heart and let my spirit worship Yours
I open up my mouth and let a song of praise come forth
Worthy, You are worthy

chorus:
Of a child-like faith
And of my honest praise 
And of my unashamed love
Of a holy life

the two lines in the song that I have been focusing on were the first two  because have not been laying down my busy mind and finding time for my personal devotions.  Since playing this song for the first time in a long time, I have been consciously trying to take time away from school and work and do my devotions.

 

myth

Recently I watched the show south park where Stan’s girlfriend Wendy broke up with him and started to date another boy.  After this  Stan’s friends take to a place called raisins which is the equivalent of Hooters for 4^th grade boys.  Anther character named Butters falls in love with a waitress who the thinks likes him but she is just flirting for tips.  Moreover at this point Stan decides that live is not worth living and turns Goth.  He thinks that because his girlfriend is with another man that life is just a “black abyss” and all we have here is pain.  Now by the end of the episode Butters realizes that the waitress does not like him and so he becomes sad and tearful.  As Butters is crying in an ally, Goth Stan comes along and trys to convince Butter that life is only pain and invites him to be in the Goth click.  Then the following conversation happens 

Goth Kid: I guess you can join up with us if you want. 
Goth Kid 2: Yeah. We're gonna go to the graveyard and write poems about death and how pointless life is. 
Butters: Uh, uhm no thanks. I love life. 
Stan: Huh? But you just got dumped. 
Butters: Well yeah, and I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad. It's like, it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt somethin' really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness. I guess that sounds stupid. 
Goth Kid 2: Yeah. 
Stan: No. No, Butters, that doesn't sound stupid at all. 
Butters: Well, thanks for offering to let me in your clique, guys, but, to be honest, I'd rather be a crying little pussy than a faggy Goth kid

in this story Butters is the rustic and his advice get stan to go back to normal and leave the goth life.